All that could have been done has been done; for now. I have done brainstorming about the choices i have made and their subsequent consequences.
A right choice!, A worng choice!, A right choice!, A wrong choice! I don't have a readymade answer to offer but i am confident about the orginality of my decision when i look back in time.
I look back and all i see is a tiny, 5 year old boy in navy blue knickers and super white poly-cot shirt standing under a coconut tree singing "jayati jay jay maa saraswati" ( a prayer towards the hindu goddess of wisdom). Getting up early, a cold shower at 5.30 in the morning and boiled rice for dinner were the meaning of life back then. The hunger, so devastating, that you could eat all the snacks brought from home in a single sitting. The days, so long, that you could cross the date on the last page of the diary a trillion times and yet two more periods would have to be attended. The hostel warden, such a witch hunter, that he would know exactly when you sneaked out to buy the biscuits. The locker keys, so cunning, that they will disappear everytime you go to the playground. And the worst, the holidays, so scarce, that they end before you have shown all the cuts and bruises to the mother.
True, i have moved on, so have the circumstances. Life isn't that tough now. A thing called salary comes in the end of every month and thats why i wake up in the morning. A thing called target remains in my mind all the time and thats why they pay me salary.
But when i get a minute for myself, i brainstorm. I brainsotrm for all that my parents have gone through. All that i have gone through to get this thing called education. And a herculean question blocks my way. Am i doing justice to myself ? Am i doing justice to the enormous sacrifices my parents have made? Am i doing justice to the strong desire cropping up in me to give it back to the world? And top of everything, Shouldn't i listen to my heart and do what i believe i would love more?
Well! I don't know. There are plenty of things that i dont know. But there is a truth! I am willing to live for others. I am willing to explore, use my potential to shape up the future of some more people, who wouldn't get it otherwise.
After all "Money isn't Everything"
